Anyway, here it goes:
Sunday, Oct. 1: Dreamt Lucifer Sam was running around loose by a school near my parent's house and I had to catch him. Also remember watching a movie (that doesn't exist IRL) that was titled something like "One person's Volvo is another person's blah blah blah". That wasn't quite the title, but I think the gist of it is there. Then the actors sort of came out of the movie and started to get involved in my life. I didn't like it.
But here's the weird part. IRL last night I opened the shades completely on the large bay window so that I could see the night sky in its entirety. I don't know what time it was when I woke up...I want to say it was around 4, but I don't know...maybe it was earlier. I glanced at the sky and I totally freaked out. There were two clusters of aligned stars in columns and rows...kind of like if you took a portion of the star part on the US flag and put it up in the sky--at least that's what I saw. Now realize I am terribly nearsighted (also somewhat middleaged far sighted) and astigmatic. So I put on my glasses to see if that was actually what I was seeing. I even went to the bathroom and came back, just to make sure I was awake. As I focussed harder, the orderly columns and rows seemed to disappear, but there still seemed to be clusters, even if they weren't ordered. I went back to sleep, but each time I would open my eyes and look at the sky, I saw nothing but ordered (column and row) clusters. Now here's where it starts to blur between waking and dream. I can't remember whether I actually *saw* this or dreamt I saw this, but one time when I opened my eyes, I saw one long single column of stars. This then got further infused in my dream so all I dreamt about it seemed was seeing ordered stars in the sky in various formations and wondering when the aliens would land and get me.
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Too many visitors...too many Republicans. Can't wait until Stan and I can get away by ourselves. Too many people make my throat hoarse. I am suffering from allergies terribly here too. Allergies may suck in Madison, but if I take a Claritin there, they go away and I can breathe with clear sinuses. Here, I have been taking a Claritin every day for about 4 days or so, and my nose is still stuffed (we call that Colorado Nose) and I am still having constant fits of sneezing. Last night I even had a nosebleed of sorts (not serious...just reddish when I sneezed), probably caused by the dry air combined with the dehydrating effect of Claritin. I AM SO GLAD I MOVED FROM THIS STATE. Nonetheless, it is still nice to be on the southwestern slope, scenic-wise, and hopefully we can enjoy that more as our stay progresses. Right now, Stan's mom just got released from the hospital on Friday, so we are sort of inundated with well-wishers. On the good side, I've made a lot of jewelry while visitors have stopped over. It's like...I don't know them...I'm just a party to a party of the party involved. I just can't stand to sit during idle chit chat. I hate it, especially when I'm not involved in the conversation. I have to be doing something, that's just how I am, and since we can't exactly leave (I guess that would be considered rude), then I'll just sit here and keep my business running, so to speak. I'm sure these Republicans would appreciate that, if they're worth their salt.
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Monday, Oct. 2: I am not wanted here. I am invisible. I have been invisible for years, but this is the straw that broke the camel's back. I am really sick of it. If you listened to their conversations, you would not think Stan has a wife.
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I have a 56 K modem. I'm only getting 28.8K. This really sucks.
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Sunday, Oct. 8: I had a pretty funny dream last night. I dreamt I decided to do a figurative oil painting on an old acrylic canvas board about 24x36"...not exactly the medium or style which I currently work in. The picture was of two of my former grad school art profs, The Chicagoan and The Catholic. I was depicting them as sort of a mythological beast, legless and joined at the butt, like a long professor caterpillar tube, butt in the middle a head at each end. Hope that makes sense. I could illustrate it if I had my Wacom tablet with me, but then I couldn't upload it due to slow internet, so that's a bit pointless right now. It seemed like I was in a classroom, and the Chicagoan was walking around talking to students there. He passed me up, either because a) I am a FORMER student b) he could tell I was just starting on it and right at the beginning and not exactly ready for a critique or c) the subject matter was not worth his high priced professor wages to discuss with me. In the dream, I was getting quite a chuckle out of it all.
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Haven't had time to write. Not much time.
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6 Comments:
I think the professor dream caterpillar tub is very funny.
I'm very glad that you wrote about the star dreams, and I think you had several nights with dreams like that. I said I thought they may have something to do with your own personal visionary path. Maybe like some kind of cosmic door, or the spirit world is communicatint with you.
Sorry that you felt so invisible - but I think it is largely the medication that makes for some loopy things being said....
It's TUBE, boob. Not tub.
The star visions weren't just dreams. To say they were dreams is to discount what was going on. Hallucinations? maybe. Visions? possibly. Defective nighttime vision? likely. Dreams? No. I was not asleep when I "saw" them.
I jus realized I didn't write about *all* the starry sky experiences. I had several of them. Each night I slept in that room, I would see a row of stars in the middle of the night when I woke up. I didn't see it in the other (smaller) room (Stan and I took turns trading off rooms...bed's too small in either room) and I even looked out the window there too. There was something about the San Juans in the middle of the night that gave me these weird visions of aligned stars.
I think you said in later nights there were clusters of stars.
I slept in the room for one clear night when I could see the stars at 5 am lining up a little with the window frame. This was just a time and season and buliding location alignment. I don't know what star structure this was but there were only a few major stars that aligned with the window frame. There weren't rows or clusters of stars that seemed cosmicly visionay.
You should be open to the posibility that you experienced visions of some kind.
sorry to hear stans momis sick! hope she gets well.
Actually, she wasn't sick, Dawn, she had a hip replacement. I think she is doing well now.
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