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12:20:2002 Entry: "Ann : Brunhilde...and other stories"

Brunhilde...and other stories

You know what grabs my groin? People lumping you in with a bunch of other people just because they *think* you're their friends or acquaintances. Por ejemplo...Back in Jr. High, there was one girl in PE class, Girl M, that never showered afterward, even though every one was required to shower unless they had a doctor's excuse or it was during their period, in which case they could take a half shower. I could care less...it was her body...her stink. Personally, I never noticed much stink emanating from young teenage girls anyway, but I guess the shower thing is good practice for adult life. You did have to wonder about those school showers and using that soap inside a pantyhose leg that everyone else used...how clean can you get? Pigs probably get cleaner rolling in mud. I was friends with one girl, Girl D, who was friends with another girl, Girl K. Girl K and I sort of mutually detested eachother. Lemme describe Girl K...she was right out of central casting for a Wagner opera Diva...fat lady singing and all that, plus her views were very nationalistic, right wing, born again...you get the idea. I guess she thought I was a bad seed or something (oh such a switch from 6th grade when these [expletive deleted]s I used to hang around with dumped me because they said I was goody-goody...yet I digress). Anyway, Girl K didn't like the fact that Girl M didn't shower. I don't know why she cared...it's not her body, but then again you know how many of those right wing religious types like to control other women's bodies. So Girl K told the gym teacher that Girl M skips showers. Girl M got in trouble, and for some reason she found it was Girl K who tattled, but because I was friends with Girl D who was friends with both me and Girl K, naturally, I was part of the "group" who tattled on her, whereas I didn't even have any idea what was going on, let alone that Girl K told the teacher, let alone that Girl M was skipping all her showers! Girl M was sort of a tough turd of a person, so naturally I was fearing for my life because she'd probably rather tangle with me, a petite little thing, than tangle with Brunhilde. Nothing came of it other than dirty looks, fortunately. But still. Hey, man, I was Switzerland, but everyone thought I was Mussolini.

OK, so about the (I want to put one of Ann's Creative Vulgarities™ here, but it's probably not best because it's very crude...just use your imagination...think of the worst thing you can call a woman and put the ending "-let" (like piglet) on it, and you got the picture) [expletive deleted]s that I knew in 6th grade...out of the blue they wrote me a note deciding to "elimate me" (translated as eliminate me/elevate me in their dumb Freudian slip spelling...or so a psychologist friend of my mom translated it to mean) from their group because I was too "goody goody." Because I got good grades? That made me goody goody? Because I was smart? Because I wasn't spoiled ass[expletive deleted]s like they were? Did they even know me? Did they even know that I detested our teacher? If I was a goody-goody, wouldn't I have sucked up to her? WTF were they even talking about. I can look back on it now and know that they were a bunch of suburban *u**-ups and they're probably working on their 4th marriages by now and they probably look like hell with wrinkles one could lose a dime in. But it makes you think...because someone says something about someone...they're goody goody...they're a bad seed...they're really nice...they're a crook...they're a wife beater...they're generous...they're this...they're that...why do you take it at face value? I obviously have aspects of my personality that are both and neither goody goody and bad seed. It all depends on who you are...I was a goody goody to the [expletive deleted]s, I was a bad seed to Girl K/Brunhilde. Which is the truth? Probably neither.

So there you have it. Second hand information about a third party probably has nothing to do with the truth.

And just because for some reason your name is associated with someone, doesn't mean you have anything to do with them at all.

6 Comments

whew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh do i k-n-o-w what and how you mean and feel.

Of course, everyone in high school thought i was a teacher....until they saw me get stoned at the docks...oh such a party girl i was. But then, i have always, and will ever be concidered the liberal rebel.
::wicked grin::

Posted by Lori @ 05:29:2002:10:39 PM CST

Very hard reading in the morning, this story, I got seriously confused several times during the readingprosess, mostly because I lost track of Girl K and Girl M and, and... ;o] When finally done struggling through the story and starting over again once because of the alphabet girls, I see the point.

Posted by Nico @ 05:30:2002:04:29 AM CST

Isn't it interesting how much pre-pubescent girls and women with too much time on their hands have in common?

Posted by Leann @ 05:30:2002:08:47 AM CST

That's a funny story Lori! You mean they didn't realize you were a student?

Don't think about it too hard, Nico! No one represents anything or anyone at all...it's just real life incidents from my past, that's all...it's not supposed to be symbolic or anything. ;-) Brunhilde and Girl K are the same person...maybe I should've made that a little clearer.

Leann...yes, how true!

Posted by Ann @ 05:30:2002:09:57 AM CST

LOL..no, they didn't realize i was a student...may have been the way i dressed, and i looked older. Funny thing though, i look the same now as i did then, and alot of the kids then look sssoooooooooo different!

Posted by Lori @ 05:30:2002:06:13 PM CST

Lori, you're like the Bizarro me. I look a lot different from high school (mainly in the weight dept.) but I still look like I could be a high school student. That's why I don't want to get any where within 1000 feet of a high school for fear of being mistaken for a student. :-D

Posted by Ann @ 05:31:2002:08:55 AM CST

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