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12:20:2002 Entry: "Ann : Yesterday"
Yesterday
My once dying Maranta plant is now alive. Yesterday, one of the former sprouts unfurled itself into a perfectly-formed leaf. I think the main plant parts are dead, but the sprouts continue to grow. I am so relieved...that thing is a rarity, and I was fortunate enough to find it the day I brought it home.
My ferns aren't doing too well...they are so difficult to keep alive.
My peperomias that I'm trying to propogate by rooting in water aren't working. The stems are rotting. Guess that technique doesn't work for them--I'll have to rely on the rooting medium method. The first one I tried that way that was forming roots on the stem now has baby leaves coming up from the roots. Yes, they are cute. I was pretty excited...I actually propagated a peperomia. It seemed so foreign to me...not at all like propogating coleus or wandering jews that root easily from stem cuttings. This was more advanced...like I've attained honorary horticulturalist status.
Yesterday I took a few paintings over to Kingsfoot Gallery where I'll be having a show in July. They needed a few to photograph for press releases. I was asked if I had a working title for the show. Ask me that ten years ago, I would've had a dozen. Now it seems so difficult and tiresome to come up with stufff like that. I hate the administrative duties of being an artist too...paperwork, resume writing, press releases, artist statements. I seem worse at it than I used to be. I don't know whether it's because I'm jaded, bored, old, cumudgeonly, stressed, fragmented, or what. I have so many files in my hard drive that sometimes they're hard to retrieve. I don't know where I stored them. Sometimes I think my disk might have crashed a few years ago, but I'm not sure when it did, or if it did. Stan claims his hard drive crashed when he was in his mid-thirties. Sometimes I think I purposely misplace files I don't want to deal with. Or maybe my hard drive never crashed but is continuously losing data through some sort of electro-neuro leak. Do they make Norton Utilities for brains?
Watched "Sybil" last night and on Monday night. Stan never saw it...I always wanted him to. I saw it when I was a sophomore in high school, I believe. It brought back lots of memories. That movie, combined with "I Never Promised You a Rose Garden" made me want to be both a psychiatrist and to have hallucinations and multiple personalities. I thought cultivating multiple personalities was a way to have siblings and relatives that I never had, and the friends I lost because of moving across country a lot and always being the new kid and never fitting in. You know how those "Drugs R Bad" movies actually made kids want to do drugs? That's how that movie was to me. It made me want to be crazy. Maybe I just liked the thought of a nice Joanne Woodward psychiatrist understanding my problems. But it's not like that in real life...not that I went to any psychologists or psychiatrists or anything, although I did see a social worker in graduate school (which was a total waste of time). When I told my mom I was thinking of studying psychology, she told me that psychologists/psychiatrists only went into it the field to work out their own problems. Was that my movitation? I was rather put off by her statement at the time, yet as I grow older, I find a lot of truth in it. So I never became a psychiatrist or psychologist...three courses in psychology was enough for me...I'm not a studier when I'm required to learn something, and didn't adapt well to those multiple choice tests they gave in lecture classes. I'm still undecided on the crazy part. I don't know whether I already went crazy, have always been crazy, haven't gone crazy yet, or am better adapted than most people and can't go crazy no matter how hard I try. All I know is that I can't find a piece of paper I layed down two minutes ago. And it happens every day. And that scares me.
3 Comments
so you need a name for your show???? oh i love this!
ok...so tell me, what kind of paintings are they persay? does the art have a theme? that would be a good way to get a start on a name.
ANd you know, you must be stressed..that's a good reason for forgetfullness...that or pre-menopause, but we all know you are far too young for that my dear.
So don't worry....
You know, have you thought about using "Eye Balm"? it's yours..original...catchy...
Posted by Lori @ 06:19:2002:10:02 PM CST
I am stressed. Too much crap happening all at once. But it might be the pre-men thing too...my mom went through it rather young and she even had a kid and I've had none and sometimes I'd have two periods a month before I went on BC pills, so I'm using my stuff up fast.
Pre-men...makes me think of a word I made up last night..."pretarded." Like before you become retarded. Maybe my forgetfulness is just due to pretardation.
Posted by Ann @ 06:20:2002:10:20 AM CST
LMAO...oh that's good...i like that one!!!!!!!!
well, at least ya have your sence of humor,eh? But hey! i like "Satin Riots" good choice
Posted by Lori @ 06:20:2002:11:57 AM CST