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Saturday, May 24, 2003


A very confusing dream. I had some sort of video or something (maybe something I downloaded?) where Roger Waters was interviewing other people. I have no idea who these other people were. Roger seemed to be in his 40s. I told Stan I wanted to watch it. We seemed to be in a different house than our own, maybe a motel or something. Can't remember.

Then I was at some art supply store or something. I was sitting at a counter looking at supplies and Stan emerges from some back room, staggering and nearly collapsing on the floor. I ask him what is wrong and he says "It's the Ajax. It's going to kill us all." I don't remember his exact words, but I distinctly remember the Ajax part. Then he urged me to leave, saying something about biological warfare. I remember I had to gather some things to take with me...probably my iBook, personal items. I was afraid that I was going to make him late or that he'd leave without me. I went outside and we got into the new van and started driving away. We were driving in this really hilly area offroad (not a good idea for a van with a low clearance). The van was being tossed around on these grass and flower covered hills and I was afraid we would tip over or get stuck. I think at one point we got out of the van and started walking toward some university building that was there. I can't remember much more after that.

Ajax. Weird. Wonder if it has anything to do with Ulysses' dog.

Posted by Ann on 05/24/03@10:35 AM CST ..::Link::..

Friday, May 23, 2003

Oh crap, why did I start this game when my Tangerine won't be home for a week or more?

Crap. It's going to cost $400 to repair it! It's something really just has a loose connection when I connect the AC adapter, so it keeps going off and running down my battery. Damn damn damn. If I had $1200, I'd just get a new one except for the facts that:

1) Well, I don't have $1200. I don't have $400 either, but...

2) All new Macs don't have system 9 installed and I desparately need OS 9 for running Fontographer because it will NOT work under Classic. (and I'm not buying that Scanfont program. I like Fontographer, I've been using it for over a decade, and I have not been able to get a handle on how to manipulate Scanfont.)

3) And frankly, Apple, I really don't like the new iBook un-ergonomic design. I can live without the cuteness of the old original iBook bivalve-type casing, but part of that design was that it was much more comfortable on the hands. I have delicate hands.

4) My Tangerine is damn cute.

Anyway, to get back to your question, Stan, so as not to confuse you, I don't think we've ever called this person. I can't say positively we've never called him, but I don't think we ever did. I better not say anymore as to not give you too much info.

Posted by Ann on 05/23/03@12:23 PM CST ..::Link::..

Thursday, May 22, 2003

Baby Phone


BTW, I'm using Stan's iBook because mine is at the Doctor's. :-( And there's this grinning lightbulb icon on his that looks like a Pilsbury Doughboy. Scary stuff. Or I looks like that smiley face water tower like on the DK's album.

Posted by Ann on 05/22/03@10:07 PM CST ..::Link::..

"He's lucky, I'm lucky, You're lucky, Everybody's lucky, Ha Ha Ha" Magenta

I understand that you refered to this person as someone we use to know, but just for clarification I have a question.

Do I or have I made any phone calls to this person - at least for as long as we've had Baby Phone in our household?

Posted by Stan on 05/22/03@10:03 PM CST ..::Link::..


Or maybe the next day.

Posted by Stan on 05/22/03@05:08 PM CST ..::Link::..

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

OK, we shall resume tomorrow.

It would be really strange if someone came across this conversation and didn't read from the bottom up. It would make absolutely no sense. It would be quite surreal.

Posted by Ann on 05/21/03@10:27 PM CST ..::Link::..

"It's not a moter cycle, it's a chopper baby" Pulp Fiction

Don't worry about the reasoning, because the line of thinking is full of holes. Anyone with half a wit could pry it open with simple word definitions and tear it to shreds.

My computer is getting hot and it's little fan is running. I think I should put it to sleep and go to bed myself. I'll sleep on th enext question.

Posted by Stan on 05/21/03@10:24 PM CST ..::Link::..

I have absolutely no idea what you just said.


Posted by Ann on 05/21/03@10:19 PM CST ..::Link::..

"How long ago were you and Hank friends Harry?" Agent Cooper

To know someone in the past tense is somehow in my mind incomplete philosophically. In life we know each other to certain degrees of closeness and for certain lenghts of time. When we say we no longer know someone it largely means we haven't spoken to that person for a certain length of time and to the best of our understanding we have no good clue as to whether they're dead or alive. However, when we know someone in past tense our understanding of that person can't really be - that we have become ignorant of knowing them. Our understanding of that person fails to be a condition of ignorance and we actually have present knowlege of the person, because we do in fact know that person. What really is the case of knowing someone in the past tense is that - we are no longer in contact with a person we know. Thus, to no longer know someone is to know a person in the past tense. Also, to know someone in the past can not be the same as having ignorance of a person. Then it's fair to conclude that when we no longer know a person we still know that person, but we're only being short of having remained in contact with that person.

Does this person live in a costal state (to the best of our knowlege of this person), or do they live in a land locked state?

Posted by Stan on 05/21/03@10:17 PM CST ..::Link::..

Not to be confused with Roger The Hat

Who was a different Roger entirely.

Yes, we knew them in real life.

Posted by Ann on 05/21/03@09:55 PM CST ..::Link::..

"Whew - that was a close one!" What Al Gore must have said after 911.

I'm very glad to know that you've never used any names of Disney Witches in your journal. I'm sure it would be very bad karma too. Remember not to hate the hat, because you always have to respect the hat even when the hat brings bad things into your life. Always respect the hat.

Did, or do we know this non musican male in real life?

Posted by Stan on 05/21/03@09:53 PM CST ..::Link::..

You're funny, Stan,

but it's R-O-G-E-R!

No, it's not Roger. I said that before. But it is a man. And anyway, I never used any Disney Witches' real name in this journal, so I'm safe from being found by them, thank goodness. I have enough to worry about now with the Roger Haters. Heh.

Posted by Ann on 05/21/03@09:47 PM CST ..::Link::..

"Candy is dandy little girl...yes? Jean Renault of Twin Peaks

Ha Ha! now your going to get every sheepish little shallow minded Rodger hater on the internet reading your sight. They're all going to want to send yo hate mail telling you how mean and evil Rotten Rodger Really is - and why can't you see that he's a bad seed who ruined everything for everyone - and naging you on and on with their silly little banterings. I hope you won't be driven pink with madness from all of their feel good and just be nice rhetoric.

OK - on to the question. Is this person a woman, man, or Disney Witch? Or two of the three?

Posted by Stan on 05/21/03@09:43 PM CST ..::Link::..

Yeah, right.

Yeah, Roger (no D, Stan, you big Dummy) Waters ego surfed his name and found my site. Yeah right. But anyway, to answer your question, no, this person is not in a music group.

Uh oh, now I'm really going to get the googlers. Now I'll have all these idiots googling "Roger Waters Ego." Shit.

Posted by Ann on 05/21/03@09:31 PM CST ..::Link::..

"Who could this be?" Jean Renault of Twin Peaks

Is this person in a music group like Rodger of Pink Floyd or Bill of Biota for instance. I mean is this person a musician as opposed to a visual artist or writer?

Posted by Stan on 05/21/03@09:28 PM CST ..::Link::..

Hey Stan,

I think someone just ego surfed and googled their name on this site... Play 20 questions with me to see if you can guess who it is!

Posted by Ann on 05/21/03@08:57 PM CST ..::Link::..

More DREAMs about cupboards and beards.

First of all, I'm rendering somethinng in Bryce while I type this again, so it's anooother episode of Stuttering Goatboy typing. Bear with me, I'm not fixing the mistakes. It'll probably mean fewer freakass Googggle seearches finding this site, and considering what people search for, I rather fancy that thought.

Now here's the scoop on the dream. First I want to mention a dream that I had a few nights ago that I didn't write down because I thought it was really stupid and didn't wwwant Stan to read it. But because of something in my dream last night, I'll go ahead and mention the weeird Stan dream first.

Weirdd Stan dream: Stan had a beard that waas mostly grey with white patches of hair. I tthought it made him look like his father and it freaked me out and I told him to shave it. He said sadly...."you don't like it?" Like as if he did. Stan's not a facial hair person.

Weird dream last night: It was a collaaage of different things, most of which occurreeed while I was listening to public radio in the morning after Stan left for work. Ittt was rather sinister...I remember his grandmother was there, and it was not good. She was angry with us...maybe lecturing us...I remember bbblond wood cupboards. Lots of light colors. Then I was watching something on TV with Pink Floyd...either that or I was there in person watching Pink Floyd. Sometimes it's hard to tell in a dream. It wass very early Pink Floyyd, circa 1967 because Syd was there. They were walking down a street (everything was still like the blond wood cupbooard look...very light colored) and being filmed. It was reminiscent of the Scarecrow video that features Syd (the color one, not the black and white one with David). I remember Roger too, but Roger and Syd are the only ones that I distinctly remember. I think maybe there were five of them because theree seemed to be more than four. Maybee it was around that transitional period when they brought David on and bbbefore Syd left completely. Syd was walking away from the camera as it was filiming him. He was wearinng white pants, and one leg was rolled up, the other down. I thought "man, Syd is really losing it here." Then another cammmera angle, and it's showing Roger and he's walking ahead of everyone else. He looks exxxaccctly like he did in the Scareccrow videeo, except here'ss the weird part. He had a grey beard with white patches...just like STAN in my dream the other night. But as he gets closeeer to the camera (isss my stuttering keyyboard really getting out of control here?) I realize it's not facial hair (good...Roger would not look good with facial hair either), bbbut flour, as if he had been baking or cooking.

I have no idea what this means. Butt Stan is a cook.

Posted by Ann on 05/21/03@02:28 PM CST ..::Link::..

Monday, May 19, 2003

DREAM - Planes

I don't know which parts of this dream came first:

I was with Stan at his half-sister Adria's house. They had a couple puppies, and we had Lucifer Sam with us (I don't know about Plato, his whereabouts). Their puppies were like a German Shepard and a Poodle mix; they were younger than Lucifer Sam but bigger. I remember everything being quite a mess.

I was at the Dane Co. Airport outside in stationary bus that was by a runway. There were planes taking off and landing not far from us. I kept thinking "this is like a dream (dream as in re-ocurring unconscious nightmare as opposed to "heaven"), watching planes take off and land." I was wondering if one would crash as they usually do in my dreams. One took off with such a force that it made me fall over (I was originally standing up) and hang on to one of those metal poles that they have in busses. One plane landed sort of lopsided and it made a loud noise because its wheels weren't down either, but nothing bad happened.

Posted by Ann on 05/19/03@08:21 AM CST ..::Link::..
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